Sigh. I'm checking in because I am trying not to binge eat while I am bored and God only knows I am bored to death at work. I guess I don't know what else to say because I know nothing is wrong but everything is wrong. God I hate my depression and my binge eating ways.

Glad you're trying to give your daughter higher self-esteem, as well as your self.

You gave me something to think about - Do I have low self-esteem? God I hope not because its something else I don't want to worry about.

@Angelshaven--I hear ya!!!! Please don't feel like you need to worry if there is an issue. Sometimes it's good to just recognize something, work on it when you're ready, but no point in worrying about it. I know, easier said than done.

I feel like people don't binge eat for no reason. Something must've been wrong at some point, and then it just becomes habit, so something may not be wrong now, but you don't know what else to do.

I don't know if this is an option, but if you are bored at work, can you go for a walk or talk to a friend/co-worker, instead of binging? Again, easier said than done. I just want to support you in anyway I can.

I will check in with everyone later.

Melina- Definitely do walks at work during my breaks. Have to force myself to do it because walking is boring to me too. Wish I could talk with a friend or coworkers at work but they don't understand. It's hard to explain that nothing is wrong but everything is wrong. It's like it doesn't make sense to people that both can occur at the same time. It's like I 'm glad that I have a job but I can't stand the job because it's boring and it doesn't fulfill my purpose in life (whatever that is)...Don't know if that makes sense.

That makes perfect sense to me! Perhaps part of the reason for the binge eating is wanting to find your purpose, and being frustrated that you haven't found it yet? So, in the meantime you have an unfulfilling job. When you are ready, perhaps you can do some research and exploration as to what your life's purpose is and that may help ease with the eating. Just a thought. You are definitely not alone in this. I do understand.

Checking in today :) So far so good..had a grilled cheese for lunch and about to make dinner now..Went out and bought some healthy snacks..carrots, fresh green beans and applesauce...going to start my journal today and separate half my dinner in case I get the urge to binge...I think so far it's been pretty good...I feel like I'm in more control thanks to everyone's support and ideas on how to manage! So I thank all of you!!!!