Relapse

Dear Christina,

I understand how you feel. It's so hard to control yourself sometimes and you feel like your going to die if you don't get something to eat. I am at home by myself for most of the day and there is always a bunch of sugar around me, Pop tarts, Oreo's, and just plain sugar. It is so tempting to eat them. But we have to think before we eat. And like you said in your post. You felt sick like you were going to throw up... That is when you should have put everything down and went to the bathroom. If you have to lock your self in there then do so. Run some cold water and wash your face. Try your best not to throw up. And start thinking. Let the water run over and through your hands and try thinking of a beach. Any time I am sad or anything like that, the water helps. I know it sounds ridiculous, but if it works for me, maybe it will work for you.

Best of Luck!!!
ShyeGirlBeth

Thank you for responding, it means a lot to feel like I'm not the only one struggling with this. I hate that I've let this stupid idea about being thin take over my life. The reason I want to be thin is so that clothes I wear fit and hang off me a certain way, so that my stomach is little and I look boney, which is stupid.

And anyway, the whole thing is a product of consumerism and free market capitalism. People who are selling clothes and fashion magazines have decided that the way to look good in their clothes is to be skinny, and they put all this money into making me buy into it through advertising.

Conveniently, this also feeds the health and diet industry. So women like you and I spend our money thoughts and time on trying to look like they decided we should look like.

And the sick thing is, these people are the richest people in the world, the 1% that holds 99% of the wealth in the world, a product of this free market capitalist system.

And myself, on minimum wage, end up with an eating disorder, that I'm too ashamed to tell anyone about, because I KNOW all this is bullshit, but I still can't stop obsessing about being thin. I must be insane.

CP.

No hun your not insane. A lot of girls are like you but we just have to work on it. That's what support groups are for. The thing is that we have to want to be skinny for the right reasons. To be healthy. And we should know that it isn't going to be easy or fast. we have to do things in moderations. Eat sweets in moderations and try our best to remember that we are beautiful no matter what.