Jesus

*Talk to Jesus. pray about ur life. do u have things from ur past thats holding u back? those things can block u from creating friendship or useful acquaintances. i hope He helps u.i will be here to talk to

How old are you where you from it sounds like ur problem is the same as mine.

Courtney, if you had just recently recovered from Anorexia, I guess it is normal that you are now compensating with a lot of food. Do you know in what consists a healthy diet? Seeking for a nutricionist, or just reading articles at sites like sparkpeople.com might help you.
That's the objective part of the thing. For the mental part, I think that all the people who say they are weird, actually are not - if you make such an assessment, you are aware of how to behave. Just let yourself be who you are, and do not be afraid of others judgements. If they reject you, that just means they were not meant for you in the first place. Also finding new friends, who do not know about your previous health condition, might help you - this way you can gain your confidence back and make your current friends see you are healthy and on top form.
I hope this helps, binge eating is not something one wants to get into (also having money issues because of that, by the way).

@ Lisa.Left.Eye
Im 16 years old from Singapore

@MiguelSantana
Thanks :)
However i probably recovered from anorexia by binging on food.. It was because of binging that i gained weight so fast till im "normal" now so i always feel obliged to binge. I've already binged for half a year so im not sure if this is part of recovery or another problem :(
I actually don't dare to go near a nutritionist or counsellor because being dragged to the counsellor without knowledge of it had given me a very traumatic experience.. I think i know what healthy eating is. I follow the diets of bodybuilders and eat clean most of the time.. The problem comes that my binge foods are "healthy foods" like oats and canned chickpeas, especially the latter. Many websites always say to eat beans to curb binges but i dont think that works as it makes me binge on it even more :(
You're right that i should be myself but i've lost the essence of myself and im sort of lost. I don't really know who i am anymore. It feels like my life is based on lies :o ive probably lied so much in my life that i actually believe in those lies itself..Im starting a new school next year so i hope it works well :D
Thanks a lot :D