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Hi princess

Welcome to support groups. Seems you are working really hard on discovering yourself.

I have had anorexia, bulimia and binge eating disorder over the past 16 years. All of which are difficult to cope with. I would say binge eating disorder was the worse for me. I found myself eating even when I didn't want to eat, and I was even talking to myself and asking myself why I was eating, whilst still piling the food in to my body. It didn't make any sense. It was just a way to cover up my emotions; being guilty, disgusted, sad, lonely, angry, upset etc. When I felt these emotions, I ate.

You have a great goal to look forward to to help you with getting your disorder under control. Try to picture the future with your child and being healthy.

Journaling and asking your husband to help you in this process is a great step. Have you thought about speaking with a therapist?

I hope this does not come out in the wrong way, but do you exercise much? Even just a 10-20 minute walk a day will release endorphines and make you feel good. Also, exercising suppresses your appetite. I often find it difficult to binge after I have exercised.

Binge eating becomes habit, you need to break the cycle. Learn to distinguish between physical and emotional hunger. If you ate recently and don't have a rumbling stomach, you're probably not really hungry. Give the craving time to pass. Look for healthy activities that you can do to distract yourself from wanting to eat again, for example:

Call a friend
Listen to music
Read a good book
Take a walk
Write in a journal
Go to the movies
Play a game
Do something nice for someone else

And remember, if you do binge, you haven't failed. Acknowledge the binge, tell yourself, "I have binged, but I am OK". Move on from the binge and get back on to your meal plan.

Sorry to ramble, I hope some of this helps a little

I hope things are going well for you today. Take care of YOU!!

Lace

Thanks for your posts, ladies. OMG, I am the same way. I am SO TIRED of waking up with a food hangover every day, and my arthritis has gotten SO BAD because of this disorder. I am a retired Marine - you would think I could get more control! But no, so I need to be in a group and know that there are many like me out there and we all need to help eachother. Can't promise I will be on all day, today is rest day for me, and I am going to drink water all day and eat right - only when I am hungry. Let's not to forget to get outside and go for a walk - I have 3 big dogs who are just dying to drag me around! Thanks so much for being here and I look forward to being helped and helping!

sincerely....mbme

Welcome mbme... good to have you here!!

Food hangovers are the worse feeling. No-one I know has ever understood when I have said that to them!! Don't beat yourself up for not having control of this. It is not easy!

What type of dogs do you have? Walking dogs is a great excuse to get active and outside int he fresh air.

Hi! And I thought I made up that terminology - food hangover!!!! That's right on! I have mutley's - the loves of my life next to my grandson. Thanks for your response! What are you up to today? I am going to ready my second book written by Charles Frazier - he initially wrote Cold Mountain - what a great book and tons better than the movie - so now I am reading his second novel - hope its good.

I have been whacked out with eating habits since 1974 or so - in high school. I do attribute it to feelings of insecurity and self-hate. How is it with you?

I totally get food hangovers... they actually feel like alcohol hangovers. I find I have to sleep after a binge too.

Today I am going to go for a run. It's almost 1pm here and I am feeling lazy for not having done anything yet!!

I have had an ED since I was 13, 16 years ago. I was diagnosed with anorexia when I went to seek help at the age of 17. After about 3 years, I was at a healthy weight, but I got there and then the bulimia set in. I eventually got the bulimia under control, but slipped back into anorexia. I then developed binge eating disorder last January and struggled for the majority of last year with this. I have it kind of under control at the moment, but more so restricting than anything else. I have the occasional binge, maybe once a week, but I definitely go through cycles of all the ED's. My ED definitely has a lot to do with self hatred.

I agree - food hangovers are ALMOST as bad as alcohol - I went through a phase of alcohol addiction, but thank goodness THAT is over. I too have had phases of bulimia - but I just don't want to ruin my esophagus and teeth - though it has been popping in and out of my mind lately. So sorry to hear you have had all this to deal with!

It's good to know you run! I can only run on a treadmill now, and I was going to today, but the FH put the fizzle on that - I feel like 2 Ton Tilly in my stomach! I did start yoga last week, and it helps relax me. QUITE expensive since it is hot yoga - but I do believe it will help my Type A personality and help me relax. I miss the gym, so I hope I can stay away from over-eating today in order to feel well enough to hit it tomorrow.

I sure hope you are having a great run! I am going back to bed to "sleep it off" - my dogs awaken early and it's "FEED ME BOY!" like that big man-eating plant. They race me down the hallway. I have 2 cats also - piggies too!

I will be back on later! So NICE to talk with you, and again - hope your run was beautiful and great!

mbme - OH yes, PS - self-hatred - I need to value and honor myself more - I really am a nice person deep down - bet u are too!

I believe you will get through today, you have the strength and support.

You sound like a very nice person to me and I think I am quite a good judge of character after the life that I have had and the people that I have encountered!!

I'm off for my run in a minute. I hope to talk with you again later. Enjoy your Sunday

Princess... sorry we took over your thread. I hope some of what we have talked about you can relate to also. Look forward to hearing from you soon.

Lace xx

Thanks for the kind words Lace - I'll be with you in spirit on your run - and Princess - I hope you have read the above so we can all be in this together! Talk with you tonite ladies!

xo mbme

Thank you for the kind words. I dont take any kind of offense to anything you might say Lace. I know that you are just trying to help me and I really appreciate it. I do try to exercise everyday. I am finding it very difficult. But I am trying. I enjoy a lot of those things that you listed but I am also having a hard time focusing. I love dogs. I dont have any but I do have 3 cats and a ferret. The ferret is a riot he loves to get chased around and playing so it does give me the incentive to get off the couch and play with him. Its really nice to be able to help or be helped on here. I have had a lot of trouble with asking for help but I know that now I am not in this alone and I just appreciate all of the advice. Today I am going to do my exercises in a moment and not sure other than that. I am just hanging out... I didnt mind you talking on my post. It has helped a lot. I relate to a lot going on with your lives too. I am still new to this so knowing whats going on is helping a lot. Thank you for all your help. Looking forward to talking to you later. :-)

Hi P! Just getting ready to jump in the shower and go visit my grandson. I have done well today, only 2 cups rice - scared to go to my daughter's house because they all can eat and never gain weight and she is SUCH a good cook! Oh well, love my little grandson - guess I will just eat him up instead! Hope you got out today - i feel your pain sister!

Will write again this evening, and thanks for writing!