My heart pounds with anger

i have very little control over it anymore, my heart is getting out of control I am just so angry, I don't want to be like this, I feel like crying kicking screaming...I feel like part of my soul is dying.

I hurt so much. I was wandering through one my friends facebook pages and it was obvious he had left a comment regarding our situation, as it was commented on by another person...a person he likes...and i hate...so not a mutual friend...something about "unless you're talking about damaging each other". That was a comment I made to him saying the damage was already done.

I just hate him so much, I feel that anger all over myself, i hate hate hate him. He's a scummy worthless, piece of trash scumbag snake...and i regret ever dropping eyes on him.

I don't know if this made any sense to anybody, cos it's so full of he's in it...I just want the anger out and gone.

Love ye, hate him
Moongal x

 
By Lilac on Sun, 11-28-10, 05:39

Hey MG, I'm sorry you're hurting so much..I'm not sure of your situation but I assume its about a break up? Why not defriend him on fb? I know it seems hard but your leavig that door open to get hurt by staying friends..

xoxo
Lilac, Gina ♥

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By moongal on Sun, 11-28-10, 05:46

Hey sweetie,
Ya I already defriended and blocked him. But I could see the other comment his friend had made on my friends page to him and it was easy to put 2+2 together.

He is the most awful, evil person anyone will ever encounter. He cares for no one but himself, he is scum of the earth.

I hate him, really really absolutely and truly hate him, the idea that I was ever with him makes my skin crawl.

I'm sorry Lilac, this is not exactly waking you up on a bright note.

Love to you
Moongal x

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By todaydanitoday on Sun, 11-28-10, 19:15

I agree with G, you gotta defriend his ass. Looking at him and being able to see action between him and other people is only going to get under your skin. I for one know that I need to step away from facebook or at least a particular someone's facebook when I am no longer as close as I was with them. It's not good to still involve yourself in what they are doing and saying. It's only going to upset you more. Don't torture yourself. Just breathe and know that whoever "he" is ... clearly "he" isn't worth your time. You're much better than that. Now all you have to do is believe it.

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By moongal on Mon, 11-29-10, 08:09

Hey Dani,
Oh I kicked him off ages ago and blocked him. But it was just a comment his friend made, quoting words I had said to him, and I knew it had to come from him.

I shouldn't be angry, I should just be glad I've moved on and the fact that I rejected him (after a long period of suffering), he couldn't handle it so he just had to bitch bitch bitch til the cows came home.

I'm just so angry that I picked such a weasel, and believe me that's what he is.

Love to you
Moongal x

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By todaydanitoday on Tue, 11-30-10, 13:26

We've all been there believe me. There's times when I reflect and I'm like, "What the hell was going through my mind?" Somehow we get blinded and choose not to see the things that suck. I look back now and realize so many things that I would never stand for today.

I'm glad you got rid of him though and as far as his friend goes, it's pretty pathetic that he still finds the need to quote you. It's pathetic that they are still hanging on it and find a need to bring up past issues.

You're strong,
Dani

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By moongal on Tue, 11-30-10, 13:37

Thanks Dani,
Ya I was pretty enraged when I read it, but after thinking about it for a while, i just thought i came clean with him, in exactly how much he hurt me, and that's how he treats it, he makes fun of it, with his sad little friend...I'd like to think that somewhere inside he knows that's wrong, but what I am realising now is that I never knew him at all.

And he can stick that cheap sense of humour up his arse, cos I am the winner in this one.

Love you hun
Moongal x

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By todaydanitoday on Tue, 11-30-10, 14:05

You go girl! That's the spirit. He's obviously hurting if he still feels the need to joke about it. I'm sure he knows what's wrong, it's his sense of humor that he's using to soothe his conscience.

Love ya!
Dani

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By moongal on Tue, 11-30-10, 14:45

Hey Dani,
Thank you so much for your kind words. I used to be optimistic and think oh I must have made some impact...however it has come to a point where I can't allow myself to even question that anymore...it just got too hard.

Hope you are having a good day. I'm completely snowed in here:(

Love to you
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By todaydanitoday on Tue, 11-30-10, 14:57

SNOWED IN!? It's been a gloomy, rainy day over here.

Dani

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By moongal on Tue, 11-30-10, 16:05

Ya, I'm from Ireland and it's snowing everywhere...so although for some it's great mainly kids who could do with a few days off.

We can't go anywhere cos the roads are too bad:(

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