Has binge eating wrecked my body? :(

Hey Nat,
Although I haven't been diagnosed with any issues every time I go through a series of binging and then eating regular...I get heart palpiatations and I always feel sick and dizzy...I think it's the sudden loss of sugar.

I've had to go to hospital twice, with inflamed intestines, from abuse of laxatives, a pain I cannot describe...I thought I was being stabbed and ever since then binge or no binge fibre has been a major part of my diet.
This resulted in me having to have a colonoscopy to see was there anything else causing damage (not a wonderful procedure) and I had to have my stomach pumped.

My periods stopped for months during my bulimic phase...and I fear I have caused long term fertility damage, although they have remained in stable (and painful) over the past 2 years.

I have not had my body checked, but recently had my bloods checked for iron levels,as I was feeling extremely tired all the time, they came back perfect. Which sucks abit for me because it is obviously down to the anti-depressant I am taking.

I probably should have it rightly checked for other complciations.

God reading back on this make me thinks geesh my poor body, I'm surprised my heart manages to keep going, it goes through so much torture. And it has actually finally struck me, I have an eating disorder...woah. (sorry I'm kind of rambling here)

And I too am I also anxious and nervous around food when I'm being "good" on a binge everything goes and I count nothing...I eat without even thinking. But when trying to be good it causes it anxiety.

Sweetie, you're not stupid, and you've started dealing with this disorder and this is the most important thing. Are you going to see a therapist too? I think this is so important...they will point you the right way and help you.

You are doing wonderful, and you can repair this, you just need to repair your mind and attitude with food and yourself too.

Sending you warm wishes, thoughts and prayers
Moongal x

Oh my heart always beats rapidly after a binge, It is awful, I was I could I always think of how horrible I feel after it in order to prevent it from occurring. I binge so much that I am afraid I am getting diabetes as well. Even if I eat a little sugar, my heart rate goes up. I do not know what to do about that. Everything has sugar practically, and I cannot live on protein and calcium alone.

Me too heart beats so fast after eating a lot of sugar on a binge. Eating disorders are such a hard disease to deal with. However, looks like you are doing things to get yourself in the right place. Good for you and yes, from what I have been told the body can rebuild and heal itself in most cases. Best wishes to you!

S.

It's crazy to read these posts, it feels like I'm reading my own writing....I have experienced a lot of the same stuff.....rapid heart beating, lack of periods, acne, bingeing from low carb dieting - this BED/BN is ruining my life!!!!

I hope everyone here is doing well, keeping everything under control. It's a daily struggle for me, and I just wish it would end.

Good luck :)

Im in the same boat. I have awful skin and rapid heart beats. IBS as well. I didn't actually connect all of it, but now that everyone has mentioned it, i am going to attibute these issues to my binge eating. I know i have to find peace and find ways to treat my body as the temple it really is. after all it functions well all considering, it made my sweet little daughter. I actually feel bad for my poor body for what my mental issues have done to it. I go back and forth tho....i did blame my body for being so fat...my genes, for not having 'thin' genes instead of curvy genes. to some extent i do know that is true...i don't have thin genes. but i can't beat up my body for that...

i am trying really hard today to have three solid meals and a couple snacks. something i haven't really done since i was a kid, about 30 years ago? haha!

I'm in the same boat... I feel a little better hearing that I'm not alone. I also developed digestion problems and I feel like I've wrecked everything for good, though I've only been struggling for about a year. I had blood tests and everything seems to be fine so far but I'm worried that I'll never be able to shake this ED. It's been months since I've had my period. I'm going to the doctor on Wednesday and I'm scared she's going to find out about this because no one knows right now and I can't afford to see a therapist.
I know I've shared more of my own problems instead of helping you, but for me at least it's important to not feel alone.